Life as we know it.

I'm sitting in my bed for the last night in 5 months. I said goodbye to my two best friends tonight and could barely hold it together until i got back inside. I can't even imagine what it's gonna be like with my family tomorrow.

I'm finally coming up on the day I've been wait for and I can't believe it's already here. Last week I thought the days were dragging, this week has gone by so quickly I feel like I missed the whole thing. I begin my journey tomorrow by traveling for about 25 hours to get to Oz. I even heard an Australian accent today and got so so SO excited that I skipped upstairs to finish packing.

Of course I still am excited, but I can't stop thinking about how i'm gonna miss my family so much. Andrew went out and bought me 1 pack of our favorite Sour Gummie Worms per months that I'll be gone. If any of you know Andrew, you know how incredibly sweet it was for him to do that. Made me feel loved. But because of weight limits, I don't know that I'm gonna be able to take them with me. Oh my gosh it breaks my heart just thinking about it. My mom and I went and got our toes done today and went shopping and had a great time just playing like we normally do, but there was something lingering there. Excitement and sadness all at the same time. It's all very bittersweet this last day.

Ryan sat around playing guitar today and it made me think of how much he's grow in it while I'm gone. His job, his license, I had that I'm going to miss al that. My dad has been talking in a lot of weird voices today and trying to make people laugh, but he's also been hugging me a lot. He's always had this great way of keeping the mood light when he knows it's needed. If he was a super hero (Daddy's are always their little girls hero) then that would be one of his powers. But I know how hard this has been for him. Even Sadie knows what's coming. There are so many emotions filling this house tonight.

But through it all I feel the Lord's promise and peace. He's going to take care of everything. He's got it all under control. As we sat down in our silly animal masks and played games, it was good to know that my amazing family will be just as amazing when I get back. They'll be silly and weird and loving through my whole trip. What a gracious God to bless me with a family such as mine. There were no tears shed tonight aside from the ones coming as I type. Tomorrow will be a different story. But when we get past the initial sadness of separation, I know these months are going to be amazing and will fly by as fast as this past week.

So while almost every post on this blog will surely star my Savior as the lead, this one is dedicated to my AMAZING parents and my two crazy wonderful brothers that I love so much. I am who I am today because of you all and I love you with all my heart. My prayer for you is Numbers 6:24-26 "The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make His face shine upon you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn His face toward you and give you peace."


May the Lord bless you in this time double of what He blesses me. You deserve it for what you have sown.